The Butterfly Effect

If you are reading this, congratulations! This piece of writing has made an influence in your life and your life will never be the same again. You will possibly get a job, or lose a job, meet someone, or not meet someone, get laid, or be a virgin for the rest of your life, marry someone, or get divorced, live 5 years longer or die 5 years sooner. All because you are reading this. Not convinced, right?

If you weren’t reading this, you would probably be doing something else. I know, captain obvious here but stay with me. You probably would be at some party, maybe you are already at this party and feeling miserable cause that girl or guy didn’t give you attention and they were the hottest one there and you decided to lurk in a corner and browse the internet. Or maybe you are on a bus going somewhere and while reading this you forgot temporarily about assignment that is due in 3 days and now your brain is being paranoid about it again and you can’t focus anymore. Or maybe you are with this person on a date and they are super boring and the conversation is going nowhere and reading a blog post is much more interesting than continuing the conversation. Or maybe you’re currently in your office, having your 5th cup of coffee of the day and still feeling miserable about the group meeting you had yesterday and how awful your presentation was, the other guy was so good, and now this post is reminding you of that again, sorry not sorry. Or maybe you are reading this in your room, because you could not find no better things and you’re tired checking out another random videos off of YouTube. This piece of writing is going to take 10 minutes of your life and you are never gonna get this 10 minutes back and your life is changed, forever. How? Well in comes the butterfly effect.

Okay before we begin, let’s wind back the clock to 5 years ago, the year is 2014. How many situations do you exactly remember from that year? How many key events are there? Five, maybe six? Now do you remember what exactly happened or how things took place on that day? Exactly, minute by minute? Probably not, but in case you do, imagine you did the things a little differently on that particular day or in those particular situations. Maybe you have this memory of that job interview. Yes that one. The one where you thought, you were sure you absolutely nailed it and gave a stellar interview and all the interviewers were happy with you as well apart from this one lady on the board. She didn’t like the tone of your voice when you were answering the questions. She didn’t consider you would be the best fit for the job and the panel concurred with her because she’s good at convincing and manipulating other people. That lady was not supposed to be in the panel on that day but one of the panel members was absent because they had a flu and she was replacing them. And because of that, you didn’t get that job. Your life would have been completely different if that person didn’t have the flu. Or maybe you have this memory of meeting with this beautiful guy or girl, they were absolutely a knocker. They were also easily the best person you met in a long time and you really liked them. You didn’t understand and still haven’t figured out why they didn’t ask for a second date. Well they didn’t think the same about you because you ordered a latte instead of a mocha. They are actually super controlling and that was just a facade, whatever you saw that day. They decide which person to date based on their coffee choices because they have seen this post on BuzzFeed about “22 things you can tell about people’s coffee preferences” and decided any person who orders a latte is not a dating material. If you ordered a mocha on that day, they would have asked you for a second date and you will be in a relationship with them and be miserable for the next couple of years before you found out they were cheating on you with 3 other persons and your trust in relationships would be ruined. Good job on not ordering that mocha. Or perhaps you had a terrible accident and the memory is still pretty vivid. You were trying to cross the road and got hit by a car because you didn’t see it coming. You were looking at your phone to see whether your crush had given you the reply to whether they have seen the movie The Interstellar yet because it was still on theatre and you had been meaning to ask them out for a movie date and the driver of the car didn’t see you as well because they were checking on their socks to see whether they have worn the lucky pair because they were going at an interview and collision! You got hit by the car and your left leg got broken, was pretty nasty, no your crush didn’t text you back, but they did come to see you at the hospital and you guys eventually got it on cause they had a cast fetish and found your plastered leg to be quite hot (cast fetish is a real thing), to each their own, it is a free world. The driver lost their driving license for a year and prospect of a better life, they didn’t get to that interview and this incident was a huge blow on their self esteem, they still don’t drive and work at a retail centre on minimum wage. If only they were sure about their lucky pair of socks, if only you didn’t check on your phone. Life would have been different for you both.

There, I have summarised the butterfly effect. Congratulations, now you are gonna be self-aware and over-analyse every minute details of a particular situation cause every little and insignificant actions, like reading this piece of writing, will leave a huge impact on your life and it’s never gonna be the same again. Because nothing is insignificant, and nothing is little.

Bye.

You will not grow unless you have the courage to change yourself.

First Man (2018) review: A space odyssey of what it means to be lonely while achieving greatness.

Direction: 8.5/10.                     Director: Damien Chazelle.
Cinematography: 8.5/10.                IMDB: 7.7/10.
Music: 8/10.          Grade: A         RT: 89%.
Acting: 8/10.                          Starring: Ryan Gosling, Claire Foy, Kyle Chandler.
Overall: 8/10.

Let’s get this thing out of the way first, Damien Chazelle is already among the elites with only 3 movies on his directorial catalogue. I have considered Whiplash and La La Land as masterpieces of modern cinema and there are many who have the similar opinion. First Man is unlike any other space movie you will ever watch just like La La Land and Whiplash were in their respective categories. I refuse to depict First Man as a space movie because there are so many elements in this movie which transcends a single genre of movie. If you are looking for the nitty-gritty of a typical space movie, you’d be severely disappointed and having said that, let’s talk about this movie.

Why you should NOT do a PhD

PhD is the highest academic degree that you can have and having a PhD degree not only just looks good on your CV but it is highly rewarding as well. I have only started my PhD at Massey University of New Zealand on a joint Chemistry and Veterinary Science project but before coming here, I had over 3 years of research experience and I was pretty certain why I want to do this PhD and the reason I chose this career. But there are so many people that I know who didn’t/don’t have a proper understanding why they are doing a PhD and what exactly drives them to pursue this career. Here are 5 reasons why you should NOT to a PhD and think about doing something else;

10 reminders for life

1. Nobody in this world owes you anything, not your parents, friends, lover, nobody but yourself.

2. Everything great takes hard work.

3. Life is not fair, not even to the slightest degree.

4. Only YOU are responsible for your failures and the way your life looks. Nobody else is. Take full charge of your life.

5. Create your own identity. Don’t crave/seek attention and validation. True achievers do not get things done for getting validation and approval.

Invest in yourself more rather than investing on material things and other people. And that includes from taking care of yourself to hanging out more with yourself. You may get disliked by a lot of people but in the long run, you will be successful.

Fitness; My diet chart for Bulking.

Here’s something different for a change. I have been bulking for better part of this month and this chart is made exclusively for that, will follow till end of April cause by then I’m hoping to gain 2-3 extra kilos (currently 78 kg/172 lbs) while not compromising much on the BF% (currently at 12-13%). This chart is around of 5000 calories while not counting the calories I get from outside food although I hardly consume any (there have been some cheat meals this month, 5 to be specific).
On my rest days (I workout 4-5 days a week), I skip meal 1, combine meal 2+3, and rests stay the same.
This diet is around 40% protein+40% carbs+20% fat. My maintenance/cutting diet leans heavier on the protein side. It’s been fun!

An unpublished note

I was checking my unpublished drafts and I wrote this on October 20, 2017. I decided not to publish this one for whatever reasons. Here it goes:

The more problems that I am facing, the roadblocks which are coming on the way, the more I have to remain patient and let things go. But you know what’s amazing? I feel I am getting stronger and more mature without losing 0% of my self-esteem. I am loving myself more each day and I am so hopeful for the future. And that is the most important thing I believe.

People who don’t have enough order in their lives tend to get overwhelmed easily.

You know you are self aware when you realise that the ability to deal with things which you don’t understand is built within you.